I finally received an answer today. It was while I was taking a shower this morning, getting ready for church. God is funny how he picks his moments. I was still thinking about my post from last night and the tears and prayers that were said since then. It was then that God told me clearly, "I said Trust in Me and My will, not what you believed was my will."
It was true. I had put my trust in what I believed was going to be his will. I had not been praying for his will to be done, but for the baby to be healthy. It was what I wanted, not what he had in store for this blessed little baby.
It is still going to be difficult but I believe I have turned the corner. I can now pray and believe that it is God's infinite mercy that has taken place, even if I do not understand why.
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Yes, that will of ours is pretty hard to let go. But, I do believe it is OK to at least ask God for what we want. Then we "Let go and Let God." Sometimes pretty hard for an earthling to do.
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